i realized

i realized tonight, while trying to sort through the 3 classes i am taking, and get all the work done so i am not dying this next week with the fall festival

that the reason i have been pursuing doing my masters right away

and flipping back and forth and back and forth is that 

i think when i finish school

i am going to feel like something is missing in my life when it is done

(not like a empty hole when u dont have Jesus)

but i think i am scared to not be in school

for so long i have pushed and constantly worked and worked, whether with school or work

that i feel like when the school ends i will be lazy and have to much time on my hands, and like i have lost my drive in life

upon realizing this, i think it will be good for me to n

ot have school for a time

what will i do?

any suggestions ? lol

i think i will just be

maybe exercise and become unfat (is that a word?)

or i could find a hobby:

stamp collecting

worm farm

cutting the grass

or even becoming a expert tuba cleaner ? what?

anyways

as this dawned on me

the first thing i thought to do was blog

and believe it or not i am actually in the house alone

this is the first time since i have moved in with benny

it will only last 4-5 min, but it is nice

here is a updated pic of the house

if anyone out there has facebook, look me up and add me on

remember

a life without christ is just the walking dead

it is no longer i that lives, but christ that lives in me, and the fleshly life i live, i live by faith through Jesus